|Everybody has their obsession, consuming thoughts, consuming time.
||[May. 7th, 2007|10:38 pm]
|||||Mutemath - Mine, Mine, Mine||]|
Hahahaha, holy shit. It really is amazing how much a person can mature and change in a matter of eight months.
I haven't updated this thing since September and reading that entry just made me laugh so hard at myself. I was such a little slut. Hahaha. No, but really, when I do think back to the beginning of this school year and the beginning of my theatre career, I do remember what a little attention whore I was. I found out that I was actually attractive and thrived on the attention I was getting, not really realizing until later that none of hte guys really cared about me, but only getting in my pants.
Mind you, none of them got in my pants.
I've made plenty of mistakes since I've updated. I made the stupidest dating choice ever in September. No, I didn't date Michael. Haha, no, Kelly took care of that one and hated it. My mistake was that I was horribly naive and thought that a guy actually had interest in me but, well, once again, it was just another guy trying to get in my pants. And, once again, he didn't, and I dumped his ass.
After dumping him, I started to get close to the most amazing man that I have ever, ever met: Harold Raymond Henderson, or Hal, my boyfriend of seven months today. I could write for hours about how our relationship began, and how it is today. But that would take, well, hours, and I don't have that sort of patience.
I've given everything to my Hal. He has all of me and I have all of him. I trust him with my life and he's shared so much of himself with me that nobody, nobody else will ever know. I've devoted my life to Hal.
I sound ridiculously naive, I know. But it's amazing how much he's actually matured me. Like I said, I was a little attention whore at the beginning of the year but he's shaped me up and made me into quite the respectable woman that I am today. Dating an 18 year old has really done a lot for me and my outlook on a lot of things in life. He's enforced morals in me that I didn't ever care about, but he didn't force them on me. I took them on voluntarily. I love who I am today because of him.
NOt to mention, he's given me so much confidence. I've always been so uncomfortable with my body and how it looks. I've always hated it. But he's assured me that my body is actually quite a decent body, that I have nothing to worry about. He reassured me this also by mentioning the ridiculous attention that I received at the beginning of the year. Heh.
He's the most generous person that I've ever met. He gives me everything he can. Everyone is so surprised that he actually bought me a video ipod. I could barely believe it myself. He's only getting me one thing for my birthday, he's said, which means it's going to be something really big... I'm so curious as to what it is.
He is amazing, he truly is. There is so much I want to write about him, so much I want to express but it'd probably be smartest for me not to do so. Hum.
In other news... Friday is my birthday! Woot. I'm probably going to prom on the 26th! I'm almost done with my freshman year THANK FUCKING GOD! Hehe. Wow. I'm in such an amazing mood right now.